Goodbye anime, part I

Ah, so I think I've thouroughally destroyed my best intentions of writing everyday. Bah humbug! (and don't you just love my spelling ;)

Right now I'm sitting in front of my computer listening to Keane (www.keanemusic.com), and Jeff Buckley's "Hallelujah" and the intermittent fire alarm that keeps going off. Today is alarm testing day in my building. It has me in a bit of a strange mood.

I've finally finished my market research. I go into my meeting tomorrow.... I know that the results were worth taking the extra time.

My lesson in Temprence (card 14 of the Major Arcana of the tarot) is finally finished. I actually ended up crossing water and going to vancouver island as part of the process. Ironically, although this character that I write as, Anime_Rose, died with my Death lesson, here I am still writing as her. At least until my next post.

I have offically (well, ok, by officially I mean that I have notified my family) chosen to change my name for the last time.

So please, if you write to me, call me by my chosen name "Amaya".

Yes, a maya, or anti-illusion er... truth, or in japanese "night rain" (or so I've been told).

So, as this is my final post as anime_rose... as my even my e-mail has changed to reflect my new journey.... let me just say Goodbye.

Writing as anime_rose has been a rewarding, if sometimes frustrating experience. And now, as I move out of her character and choose instead to embrace a new name, for my business, my writing and my everyday life... I can't help but feel a little nostalgic.

For as anime_rose I moved from fool to death... I experienced intense heights and lows, I found so many positive and beautiful experiences. Rose was my compass, and my guide for this time, and I have nothing but gratitude and thankfulness for what I"ve learned from her. Anime, well, this artistic form is about to become real... no longer a stylized cartoon, an illusion, but Truth- with Amaya.

Annie Mae was also, interestingly enough, the name of a great aunt of mine who died before I was born. I learned this some time after choosing the name. And naturally, as I do not believe in coincidences, it is entirely possible that Annie was watching over me during this time of transition and definiton, lending me her name until I could find my own voice.

Now, as I move beyond the river, washed clean of old identity, and return to real life.... as I begin to make what I will be, Alive, I have let her go. I have chosen to say goodbye to that part of myself, to bring forth something new.

At times I may still write as anime_rose, but I have baptised myself into Amaya, and this new light.

Blessings
to one and all
from the sky
the storm
the lighthouse
and the ship that sails home
And welcome to the new world
.amaya.

stay tuned for part ii of this goodbye post.