Matters of the Heart

"Love is the flower we grow and behold." JC Brewer- webmedia and film consultant

"Sacrifice the Mind for the Good of the Heart." Rik Parsons- from the Celestial Numerology writings

Ah the heart....

For all who walk the paths of the world, may you be at peace.

God bless you.

I am so blessed and grateful for all that is today. Thank you to all and to one.

Namaste

Raine

www.geocities.com/raine.shine- Love Is. I Am.: Raine's Lighthouse Blog

Being of Love

I am a being of love right?

So why do I question if I am honestly the "right" person to experience great joy and love in my own life?

How is it that I can teach about love and beauty and harmony and joy, and then when those very thigns come to me in a wonderful and beautiful way... I hide from them?

I've just come across a situation where I want to lose as much of my fear as possible.... and am struggling with that extremley much. :(

Hello Loved Ones...

www.savetheinternet.com
www.geocities.com/raine.shine

Not much to say at the moment, for there has been too much. Crossing has almost finished. Right now am working on the final pieces of that, and getting ready for the new transformation.

Am busy amalgamating all of my webstuff into one source
www.geocities.com/enlightened_center
is currently under construction

Namaste all,

with much love
and with the prayer for peace and an end to suffering

Raine

Temprence- and crossing the water- and other quotes

Ah, at last I am moving out of death. I've started embracing temprence as my next card in the Major Arcana. Temprence is a card which depicts an angel pouring water into one cup behind his back, and transforming it into wine- (the representation of understanding how to transform energy and matter on a physical level).

The angel (sometimes called Archangel Michael or Michelle if you wish), is stepping into water and moving towards a mountain- with a crown on top and paradise on the other side of the ocean- a whole paradise of love.

This weekend has been a whirlwind- lots of really positive, new and different and life affirming experiences.

I've been thinking about crossing an ocean in my life for a while (the next card I'm
studying in the tarot is Temprance), and I realized during my whilrwind of a weekend that I've actually stepped into the water. For the moment I'm trying to get a sense of depth (would hate to dive in and get my head smacked really hard). And since I've stepped off of the beach (so to speak), well... I realize that I am or have actually left the shore and am moving to a whole new world on the other side- strange and I laugh at myself for the metaphor, but apt I think.

Now here I am today. It is monday. And in the past three days I've realized that I am standing in the water... I am here. The shore is no longer my home, even though it is still under my feet- I am gradually and slowly moving to a place where the shore will no longer hold me up- where I will be swimming in the water for a while. If I keep swimming forward I will come to a place where a new shore begins. And then I can walk up onto firm ground, and begin begin journeying towards and up my mountain. Temprence really is the preview card of the next Series in the Arcana. It is a map that tells you where you are in comparison to where you are going.

The thing about being the angel- having transformed from death- is (or at least how I feel about it), is that I feel a little like a shell. My inner self is there- strong and beautiful and oh so powerful- but also not always within me- sometimes hiding or watching things instead of being grounded and connected to my feet. But I have to fill up the space around myself with that inner being- (the whole water crossing experience). 'If' the water in temprance represents love, then I need to be full of love for myself and trust love again before I can enter the shore on the other side.

And I worry a bit about being this hollow and ready for a new energy and new love in my life (and I don't specifically mean a relationship- I simply mean love manifested in my life in the day to day events and experiences and interactions I have). I dont' want to fill up that space with negative or not healthy things anymore. I'm doing a very good job of space clearing in my life right now, making room for something beautiful and for love and light to be there with me.

And yet I do have to admit that I'm looking for a partner- for that elusive soul-mate that we all want to experience in relationship. Someone who loves themselves and who really doesn't need me- who instead is passionate about me and what I'm doing in my life. A partner who can work with me at WCCE because they believe in it and in me.

But more than that- I have such a longing for that person- that reflection in the mirror. I know I can have that experience and that it is there.

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I was thinking last night about how the tarot- the major arcana really are a series of world events as much as they are personal ones. We experienced Temprence when the crossing to America happened- and we have been moving toward reunion and the world ever since. The devil has been a big issue for us- as has understanding who we are- and moving closer to the world view of being one person- giving birth to a new generation of people (our crystal children etc.).

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I do have a tendancy to jump into my own experiences very quickly, once I decide to enjoy them. Once I decide to do something, I tend to dive to the deepest level of things- I really can only stand the superficial for a little while.

And thus the split with the partner- he is in many ways paddling on the surface of life right now- and I am deep sea diving- not so easy to travel together and frustrating when I come back up for air and he has no interest in the amazing life I've discovered, nor in sharing in it.

So when I feel it's safe to do so with other people, I will tend to cut through to the core of things- as I see them naturally. And that means that I will put out exercises that push comfort zones for people. I want to get the message out there that it's ok to stretch your limits. The lesson can be fun and easy- and social- but also stretch personal abilities and personal growth too- without breaking anyone.

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connecting to core self does not always happen easily and effortlessly. and there can be a lot of pain in the way- pain that comes out of being hurt badly by others, or of feeling powerless or of fear or rage. And to really truly connect to core self, to tap into that meditative state I'm trying to teach- well... you may have to paint the stuff in the way to clear it first.

you have to go through those things to reach the other side. Oh, go read the intro to my counselling website- it will tell you the story of how I see self:
www.geocities.com/anime_rose

newsletter

So, dear friends,

I've been thinking a lot about the newsletter I want to create. And what I'm struggling with is that I want it to be interactive, and entertaining, and about LIFE!

I want to talk about great movies and television shows that are worth watching from a spiritual perspective, and to share spiritual insights and stories.... and provide the modern spiritual person with information to help them navigate this crazy world we call life.

It seems to me that there's a lot of talk out there about removing ourselves from life- avoiding television, certain foods, a lot of discusson about avoidance. And I want to write and publish things that celebrate our day to day existance. I want to say "yes it's ok to watch television- and here's ways to celebrate your viewing expereince and honour yourself with really positive and intelligent and thought provoking entertainment.

I want to write about how it's ok to be a shaman- to embrace guided quests for the innter self using drugs- and how to do that safely.

I want to write about my own stories and incredible people who I care deeply for and how have been amazing teachers.

I also want to write about sex- and how powerful sex can be and what an amazing spiritual and uplifting experience it can be.

These are things my friends, that a lot of us try to walk around, or pretend that they don't exist. We talk aobut the spirit- but our bodies need care, and need to be surounded by experience that promote and bring out joy in us.

This eartly plane is not someting to be escaped and run away from- but something to embrace and enjoy and laugh and love and live in. And we are surrounded believe it or not, by some incredible visionaries and visions and teachings that can help us walk the line between matter and spirit.

That is the struggle for many of us, isn't it? To know the line between self indulgance and self worth- to understand the truth of ourselves while knowing that there is a whole world out there of different truths.

We must connect ourselves- connect the body and the spirit though the heart. Not get caught up in the purely intellectual and spiritual aspects of experience, but allow the physical and allow the energies of our grounded bodies to lead us. And only through the heart- through connecting directly into our hearts and letting our deepest self guide us, do we truly understand the nature of our selves.

Anime Returns, gratitide and rejection.

Anime Rose has returned from the land of spirit.

I chose to cut her off for a while, thought I was done with her forever... and then recently was asked to bring her back, as a gift to myself. So- hello there friends. I will once again write as Anime, because in that name there lies power for me, and I speak and sense things as I write with her words, that I could not otherwise connect to.

I've been thinking a lot about generosity and gratitude lately.

Funny enough, it started when I was reading a book about financial success. The author spent an entire chapter talking about the importance of gratitude, and how the expression of gratitude and thankfulness can bring great blessings and prosperity into ones life.

It reminded me of a very dear Shaman friend of mine- one who was always so grateful for all the things in his life. And I realized that even looking back on it now, his attitide of gratefulness and joy was a rare blessing- a powerful benediction for all those who stopped to know him.

I can not say enough about how wonderful it can be to spend time with someone who is profoundly grateful to spend time with you, who cherishes your words and who treats you with a deep and abiding respect and love.

This is the act of gratitide... and one I have decided to cultivate for a while.

I could speak of and thank all of the people in my journeys who have taught me important lessons. All of you who read my words and know me, truly know my spirit and self; You already know my love and appreciation and gratitide- and if not... there will come a time when you will realize just how much I gave you with my harsh words and how much it cost me to remain silent after speaking my truth and knowing you were angry and wouldn't write back.

If you don't know me, let me share a piece of myself with you now. AT times I speak in strong words to those I love. A time comes when I see that the time for talking about things is at an end, and I see the universe preparing a spirit for a new journey. I also see how the individual is making excuses for not taking that journey, and how even though they have understanding and know what to do- they continue to avoid the issues.

I am blunt and some think unkind. But those difficult words to read are even more difficult to write. I agonize over them and ponder their weight and edit and tweak until I feel they are just the right ones to send. I write with a great strenght of love and compassion- even as I am direct and sometimes cutting. And I pray to sprit- to the Isness and allness and the guides and all of the world- that I am sending the words and message that is needed at that time.

But it has happened in the past that some have chosen not to write me back. And as this is a possibility I am distinctly aware of, pressing the send button on any of those e-mails is exceedingly difficult. I don't really want to make you angry. My human child-she-self wants you to love me unconditionally and will do whatever you want to make that possible. But my inner core- my true spirit- gets tired of the games and makes a choice- while the meeker tamer one cringes and prays you won't be angry.

The result- I take on the pain of not hearing from you in order to be honest with both of us. I am willing to pay the price of rejection in order to be true to my beleifs and self. ANd I have gratitude, profound and deep love and thankfulness, and forgiveness for each person who never wrote back. I learned how to accept a no, and to be more free and clear in my words with each rejection.

While it still hurts, thank you. And while I still miss you: I forgive you. And I forgive myself for saying what I believed to be true and for growth. I will always be happy to hear from you, but as time passes, my worry and concern for what you think grows less and less.

So thank you to L- who gave me the book, to the author of the book, and first and foremost, to R- who gave me a life experience of relationship with gratitide, and taught me that thankfulness is an art. I may have forgotten that lesson over time, but I would never have understood it so clearly and been able to invoke it's beauty and powers in the past few weeks, if not for those wonderful spring and summer days we spent together, when I was blessed to learn from another of the great and unrecognized masters.

If you ever read this R- may you recognize your own genius and beauty in the sound of rain falling softly and the laughter of small children. Blessings, always and in all ways from the grandfathers on my doorstep:
Love
Anime

LEEEROOOOOOY!!!

This is too funny.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=1633234942240075254&q=leroy

Really really funny link!! What else can I say? My new war cry is going to be:

"Leeeeee-roy"

Have a great day everyone :)

Canadian Election Results

As a Canadian Citazen, I was very sad yesterday when the Conservative Party won the Election.

Personally, I voted green. www.greenparty.ca

And the reason I voted green was because even though the GP doesn't stand a chance of winning an election right now, their platform represents the best interests of Canadians for the future of Canada in the long term- not just the short term. (sustainable living, environmental responsiblity, health prevention as opposed to simply hospitals and doctors, protection of our natural resources etc.)

Given the state of natural resources all over the world- Canada definately needs a strong voice to protect what we have- and keep it clean and safe. Allowing american pirates (er- corporations) access to our resources, and funnelling our resources out of the country without thought for our future- is a bad bad thing to do.

We have an abundance of resources- and right now because we have so much, we need to be protecting those resources-for the future of canada and the world.

We have so much here- are so blessed as a country, and we need a representative who sees that.

Can't See the Forest for the... well you know

Pine Tree Mind Control: http://ptsmc.org

I was researching subliminal messaging last night, and came across this rather unique site. In fact, I laughed in Horror (yes it is possible). For the record, I believe passionatly in personal expression and free will. I celebrate individuality as a wonderful powerful thing. So when I found this site, I read and laughed, meanwhile shuddering at the thought of it. Joke or not joke?

As one of the subversive elements Pine Tree is out to get- I salute the whole concept.

Regardless of how true or not true it is, I think it's a beautiful, artistic and provocative social statement. So Well DONE! I hate what they're saying, but love that they're saying it. So please, if this stresses you out- or you want to have some fun... pass on the website to your favourite protesters and rile them up. If it makes you mad about the idea... it's serving a greater purpose. Don't just get mad, do something about it. Show those mind control men what individual power can do!!



Some of my favourite quotes from the propaganda pages:

Support Apathy!

What does it all mean? Nothing, really. Pine Tree State Mind Control, through social engineering and a healthy dose of subliminal programming, has already begun implanting the necessary elements to create a community of zombies. Become a zombie today! You are already on your way after reading this! The slogan is "Art versus Reality versus The Soul". Without individuality, conflict is eliminated. If we can "all just get along", there is no need to blow our little whistles all the time. All those whistles make a lousy racket. It is better to sleep. Give up. Work. Smile. Work. Sleep. Consume. Sleep

A quote about the organization:

Pine Tree State Mind Control is a small organization in Maine which has as its purpose the pacification of subversive or destructive elements in society. Using simple, yet sophisticated emotional engineering techniques, we can marshal a segment of the population that is now little more than parasitic into an army of productive, stolid, citizens. What takes water cannons and rubber bullets in some backwards countries is now done through music, television, flyers like this, and speakers hidden throughout many cities. The costs of such elegant transformation are minor and are quickly recouped (albeit indirectly) by the strengthening of Maine's social infrastructure and the resultant economic boost. Because our costs are low, the volume of our output can remain high. A moderate influence campaign (targeting a city like Waterville or Kennebunk) consists of 1500 flyers (cost - $250), fifteen speaker assemblies ($50), one low-level pulse transmitter ($300), and broadcast air time ($300). For less than a thousand dollars, we can make subtle changes in attitude and behavior of the population that make the area more attractive to commerce.

A quote about the band:

Pine Tree State Mind Control uses subliminal messages and hypnosis techniques to create a happy, productive society." PTSMC layers these messages under dense noise. This is because fans of noise "music" are typically antisocial and unwilling to be productive parts of society. This is our target market. Listening to this noise will make you smile.

Henny my friend-

Last week I was visiting friends for Christmas Dinner. It just so happened that they own a beautiful German Shepard named Hennessey. Henny (as she's called for short) is seven years old, and a very special person.

Unfortunatly Henny also has a brain tumor. She is going to die. I was really moved by her story, and by what a wonderful creature she was, so after dinner when the celebrations were kicking into high gear I sat down with her and gave her reiki.

And I could feel the tumor there- I could sense it's presence like some invading creature- cutting off energy. There was simply a part of Henny that was not there. I just love animals, and I feel so much care and compassion for all of them. Henny was no exception. It was such blessing to be able to sit with her and send her love, and to see her accept that love right back without any questions or reservations.

Maybe one of the reasons I love working with animals is because even the most hardened or hurt creature can slowly begin to care again. Animals intutively know what is good for them (even if like people they sometimes ignore it).

And animals will accept Reiki without questioning it (they don't intellectualize like we humans can), and therefore benefit in a very short period of time. I like having that direct connection with another person. It's wonderful to have a gift and to be able to use it in a positive way unconditionally.

Of course this is all very generalized. I'm sure there are animals I haven't met out there who are psychotic or evil or just plain mean. Just as there are people who are completley accepting and non-judgemental and trust themselves and the experience of Reiki. But in my experience the animals who I have met that have had the most issues were always those who had been mistreated or hurt by their owners/people. The same could apply to humans as well in some ways, but our brains give us more options and more complex lifestyles and experiences.

Oh to be a cat living in a good home. :)

I want a sunbeam now, having thought about that for a while. Later- going for a nap.

evolution :: overview

evolution :: overview

I just updated my version of Firefox, and found the funkiest online game called Evolution. If you're a fan of Civilizations or Starcraft as I am, you'll find this pretty interesting.