Being of Love

I am a being of love right?

So why do I question if I am honestly the "right" person to experience great joy and love in my own life?

How is it that I can teach about love and beauty and harmony and joy, and then when those very thigns come to me in a wonderful and beautiful way... I hide from them?

I've just come across a situation where I want to lose as much of my fear as possible.... and am struggling with that extremley much. :(