Will my will please step out of the crowd?

So...

last night I was writing before bed, trying to identify the feelings and fears I've been having, and I began to see specifically where the emotions and pain were located.

This pain actually began to gather in my will center (solar plexus for those of you who are unfamiliar with the chakras).

So I stopped writing when it became too painful to bear, laid back and gave myself some reiki. But now today, the pain is there, not so strong, but clenching, pulling.... like a little gremlin is pulling at my will and twisting my gut.

And then my Pigeon flew by today to ask me how I'm doing with my Marketing Research.... seeing as he is doing great. I listened to him talk about how he went about doing his research, and realized that I could change my approach a lot.... shorten my survey for one thing to make it more likely for people to talk to me.

And just dive in.

But Lyle also gave me a deadline to work towards as well- the group meets on teh first friday of each month- so on the first of April. I should have my research finished before then.

Today is a Gestault day.

Today I go to abbotsford... I just wrote a huge long blog entry about a dream I had last night and questions about a certain person in my life... and then Pat the Cat jumped on my keyboard and deleted the entire thing!!!

MRRRRREEEEEEEAWWWWWWW!

I guess it wasn't very good then. Maybe I should have her double check all of my posts.

:)

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Maybe.


Today's going to be great. Market research today and Legal grounds... I get to spend a couple hours talking about my dream to interested people. I get to move forward with my market research and get some more work done. Yay!!

Happy happy me.

I'm really trying to be enthusiastic about today, and convert some of my nervous energy into excited energy. I read somewhere that nervousness and excitement are the same emotion, but nervousness is simply filtered through Fear.

Probably during those Gestault classes. Afterall the high point in Gestault is Full contact. I definately want to... er... Today I will embrace the experience instead of shying away from it.

Today is a perfect day for what I need to do. I will easily and effortlessly be able to talk to others, approach others, and ask for help from others. I will be able to talk in a coherant way about my business. It will be a learning, positive experience for me if people say no. I will not have trouble asking for survey's to be filled out.

This is a wonderful day for being the owner of Center for Enlightenment.

Yay to me!! I love me, and I accept all things that come my way today.
Just for today I will not be angry
Just for today I will not worry
Just for today I will do my work honestly
Just for today I will honor every living thing
Just for today I will pulse with gratitude.... I will feel the joy of being alive and be so thankful for the opportunity to live my dreams. I will experience a great thankfulness to those who have been helping me. I will be full of joy for those who will stop to help me by filling out a survey. I will be grateful to myself for allowing myself to experience this wonderful day.