Where am I?

I'm still meditating on certain aspects of my life.
And I still have questions.
And I'm still alive.
So things are pretty normal.

But I wonder at times
if the energy in the rooms that I walk into
changes to suit my mind or if I see what is,
or if both of those things are true.

I step outside,
inside
around
and down the street
I walk left and right
and hold myself back while rushing forward
I think not ahead
and try
not-
to-
get stuck in a time loop
of the past

but you know how that is.

And I'm typing and questioning if I should be real or honest,
or if I should just be and let other people worry about the details.
except that if you're all reflections
of my mind and soul,
pieces of me,
then I'm really going to end up worrying about
details, because you will be-
and you are me.

And just typing and questioning and standing
and sitting
and lying down....
and being sad
and happy and small and infinate
all at once
are enough right now
At least for me.

If you want more than that
then you're just going to have
to be me for a while
and I'll be you
or we can stop trying
stop asking
stop doing
and meaning
and thinking
and acting
and just

LIVE.

.ajd.